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Monday, March 26
Friday, March 23
Wednesday, March 21
Insatiable desires
Sorry if it contains the same words as weddednuns but has different contents
Love the sailors in the video, and would love to go to Itaewon now.
But mehh, next time maybe
Sunday, March 18
I'm glad you told me?
Not really, feeling more of indifference, then happiness/sadness/anger.
Not glad, more like- "How much does all this actually mean to me?"
Whatever, March has been real fun and I'll hate for it to be over.
Gotta have to perk my monotonous lifestyle up a little, and start living for what I love to do and feel and absorb everything that there is to feel and absorb. Want to live like a motherfucking encyclopedia of feelings.
Early morning talk with my sis in far away land is making me feel alive and motivated.
Things will always turn out fine!
Someone once told me that the Earth was round, and anything can happen. It can bounce in any direction, just got to give it a little pressure. (I added the second part myself)
Not really, feeling more of indifference, then happiness/sadness/anger.
Not glad, more like- "How much does all this actually mean to me?"
Whatever, March has been real fun and I'll hate for it to be over.
Gotta have to perk my monotonous lifestyle up a little, and start living for what I love to do and feel and absorb everything that there is to feel and absorb. Want to live like a motherfucking encyclopedia of feelings.
Early morning talk with my sis in far away land is making me feel alive and motivated.
Things will always turn out fine!
Someone once told me that the Earth was round, and anything can happen. It can bounce in any direction, just got to give it a little pressure. (I added the second part myself)
Friday, March 2
Wednesday, February 29
Let's go~
Been pretty unhappy lately. Allowing myself to be unhappy actually. Really don't want to be this way anymore:'(
Plenty of ideas that I want to execute in a short while (thanks Felix for this totally in apt expression) Gonna push myself to get them done! In stead of moping around at home like a dead soul.
MARCH WILL BE BETTTER!!!
lost hopes and loop holes GET AWAY FROM ME!~
Plenty of ideas that I want to execute in a short while (thanks Felix for this totally in apt expression) Gonna push myself to get them done! In stead of moping around at home like a dead soul.
MARCH WILL BE BETTTER!!!
lost hopes and loop holes GET AWAY FROM ME!~
Tuesday, February 14
I don't know
Seems to be one of my favourite phrases of late.
Everything is a blur, unknown. I'm not sure what I'm doing. At times, I'm aware, but most of the time it just blurs past.
There's so much I would love to do, kill to do. But things are always seemingly out of reach. They can be presented right under my nose, only to slip out of my grasp in a snap.
I'm not even sure where to go and look anymore.
Today was Drago's 12th birthday. And he's becoming really big. I uncovered an essay I wrote about him for school when I was 15. Can't believe how much he's grown, and how much more he needs to grow. Seeing him is like seeing me when I was 12. Well, in some ways. Similar DNA runs in our blood.
Hopefully, the coming week and coming months will be better. Hopefully my mind treats me right.
Happy Valentines' everyone! I miss the girls school days where no one (hardly anyone I think?) will feel lonely<3
Laneway was really great, took me out of the blues, left me feeling I could take on anything and still be happy. But Monday brought me back to reality. Guys, back to work.
Everything is a blur, unknown. I'm not sure what I'm doing. At times, I'm aware, but most of the time it just blurs past.
There's so much I would love to do, kill to do. But things are always seemingly out of reach. They can be presented right under my nose, only to slip out of my grasp in a snap.
I'm not even sure where to go and look anymore.
Today was Drago's 12th birthday. And he's becoming really big. I uncovered an essay I wrote about him for school when I was 15. Can't believe how much he's grown, and how much more he needs to grow. Seeing him is like seeing me when I was 12. Well, in some ways. Similar DNA runs in our blood.
Hopefully, the coming week and coming months will be better. Hopefully my mind treats me right.
Happy Valentines' everyone! I miss the girls school days where no one (hardly anyone I think?) will feel lonely<3
Laneway was really great, took me out of the blues, left me feeling I could take on anything and still be happy. But Monday brought me back to reality. Guys, back to work.
Tuesday, January 24
Monday, January 23
Saturday, January 21
Strange week with strange things happening here and there. Strange feelings I can't quite portray.
Happy, sad, excitement, anxiety, sense of loss, sense of achievement. Felt it all in these couple of days.
So as usual, as the festive season approaches, I have devoted myself into reminiscing and being nostalgic over spilt milk (if that even makes sense).
No bros over for dinner this year, my first new year without my 宝贝granny and another year without my sis and her family.
And apart from that, my mum seems to be in an elongated stage of ignorance that's driving me up the wall. She posted this on Facebook:
with the photo caption being
Wish everyone are back home in Singaproe for the CNY....
With Jude Liew, Cleopatra Tan, Chloe Tan, Drago Tan
With Jude Liew, Cleopatra Tan, Chloe Tan, Drago Tan
Yeah I understadn perfectly that I'm just over reacting and being a crazy neurotic female but doesn't mean I can prevent myself from being totally affected and annoyed.
PS: I miss you guys so much Cleo, Jude and Xander.
And then earlier on this week, one of the best news I can receive in my entire life, quickly turned into one of the biggest disappointment.
So much for hopes and dreams.
Besides that, my first season for TP ended strangely too.
I guess the friends were right. I really do need sometime for myself. Not work, not friends, not family, not running around helping people but just doing things for myself.
But I wish so much that I had enough time, energy and ability to reach out to everyone, everything and that I can be everywhere. I really really wish I can.
Besides that, my first season for TP ended strangely too.
I guess the friends were right. I really do need sometime for myself. Not work, not friends, not family, not running around helping people but just doing things for myself.
But I wish so much that I had enough time, energy and ability to reach out to everyone, everything and that I can be everywhere. I really really wish I can.
Tuesday, January 10
Pain in the Ass
Frauds copycats
Highly annoyed and frustrated.
Guess that makes me just like them.
Do I have to get off to get in?
Highly annoyed and frustrated.
Guess that makes me just like them.
Do I have to get off to get in?
Wednesday, January 4
Thank you 2011, a year full of ups and downs as always.
Today I learnt that we are beings in a midst of transition. I knew it always, but it's always different to learn it in technical terms and statistics.
May 2012 pass with bliss and success for everyone!
PS: I want to head out of the country this year, for various reasons
Saturday, December 24
Nothing ever ever seems to work out the way you want it to,
and no matter how bravely you try to face up with it, you still crumble
Always midway in, and midway out.
Crumble is such a deliciously painful word
Have a merry xmas everyone, I had a great start but i'm sure that as the day carries on i'll definitely let them thoughts get into me.
Missing granny, sis, cousins, loved ones too much now
Goodnight<3
and no matter how bravely you try to face up with it, you still crumble
Always midway in, and midway out.
Crumble is such a deliciously painful word
Have a merry xmas everyone, I had a great start but i'm sure that as the day carries on i'll definitely let them thoughts get into me.
Missing granny, sis, cousins, loved ones too much now
Goodnight<3
Sunday, December 11
Dearest Granny
So basically, things have been shaken up pretty drastically.
What am I doing here now? When I should really be driving my fabric scissors down your throat?
You caused your mother so much pain and still remain plainly oblivious and blind. Driven only by greed and by money. Both of you, husband and wife, you are not so different from one another. Only one motive in life- MONEY.
Yeah it is important, I go all out to make sure that I have enough money for myself. But you see, the highlight here is enough because it never seems to be enough for you guys. There must always be more more more.
More is always better, with more money, I wouldn't be stuck in Singapore, with more money, I wouldn't have to stand a noisy strange cranky home machine, I can just get a industrial machine. fuck might as well get a fabric printer and yeah hire some dyeing professionals too. Fucking hell money is important.
But what wouldn't I do for money? Hurt my family? Become a heartless prick? Be an asshole to the people who stick to you even though you are poor?
Alright, it's not even making sense anymore.
Point is, really, there are still things that are more important than money. Never understood why ties have to be broken because of this piece of cotton. (in today's sense plastic)
You want some muslin instead? It's cotton too.
You drove your mum out, well she left on her own accord. But after all these years of tolerating, what made her leave only now? And you still blame her.
Yeah go on, blame everyone else but you.
What am I doing here now? When I should really be driving my fabric scissors down your throat?
You caused your mother so much pain and still remain plainly oblivious and blind. Driven only by greed and by money. Both of you, husband and wife, you are not so different from one another. Only one motive in life- MONEY.
Yeah it is important, I go all out to make sure that I have enough money for myself. But you see, the highlight here is enough because it never seems to be enough for you guys. There must always be more more more.
More is always better, with more money, I wouldn't be stuck in Singapore, with more money, I wouldn't have to stand a noisy strange cranky home machine, I can just get a industrial machine. fuck might as well get a fabric printer and yeah hire some dyeing professionals too. Fucking hell money is important.
But what wouldn't I do for money? Hurt my family? Become a heartless prick? Be an asshole to the people who stick to you even though you are poor?
Alright, it's not even making sense anymore.
Point is, really, there are still things that are more important than money. Never understood why ties have to be broken because of this piece of cotton. (in today's sense plastic)
You want some muslin instead? It's cotton too.
You drove your mum out, well she left on her own accord. But after all these years of tolerating, what made her leave only now? And you still blame her.
Yeah go on, blame everyone else but you.
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